hey there.. hey stranger

time really does wonders.. time passes us by in the wink of an eye... time changes the things and people around us... well... I've changed. At times it can be scary when I look back and see how much I have grown, matured and wells.... have a change in mindset, views and ethics.

So here goes... I'm sorry I did not treasured what we used to had when we had it all. I'm sorry that I'm not even sorry that I let you go without fighting for you. I'm sorry for being so immature. I'm sorry that till date, I don't even know if it was indeed love, comfort, or holding on trying to fulfill the dreams and feelings I used to had when nothing was blossoming between us. But.... thanks. thanks. thanks. I've learnt a vaulable lesson.

This time round, the person who managed to heal me from the wounds is going to cause me greater pain. But at least it stopped all the hurt, the what ifs'. To prevent this from happening. I would do what I always do best. Build a wall, maintain that wall, and tell myself... never never never to fall real deep. At the end of it all, I would have to walk away alone with a smile. For it is what I choose to sign up for. Its a new game, a risk, and for now... all I can say is that I'm willingly to change, step out of my comfort zone and put aside what i stand for.

Grant me the sanity to survive it now and later. I might not even recognise myself at this crossroad. But who's to judge...

What I seek for is simple... a love cherished by both parties. a trust deeply bonded. an understanding that no words are required. simplicity. no cheating.